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Life’s metric – Straight and Narrow or Hills and Valleys?

IMG_5027Recently I responded to a follow-up from Paul Dorset who interviewed me back in May for his Indie Author Interview series. Paul asked if the writing life had been good to me this year. This got me thinking about the zigzag of writing. According to Duotrope, I have a 22.2% acceptance rate, which the site tells me is better than average for users submitting to the same type of markets. I’ve submitted to about twenty markets and about a quarter of what I sent out published. Metrics are useful, and metrics need definition. If the metric is solely published or rejected – straight and narrow rubric of assessment – 22.2% doesn’t seem all that good when 100% is far at the other end. However, if the metric definition is writing produced, revised, drafted as well as submitted, published, and rejected plus craft study in a writing group, online course, or attending a conference, writing related marketing – Hills and Valleys of writing related activities – that one out of five pieces published seems a pretty good accomplishment in context of 20% of my time with the family, 20% of my time volunteering with community organizations, 20% of the time with self-development and craft related work, 20% of my time at the grindstone of production with 10% for submitting and marketing and 10% for whatever distraction that is all about me that I want. (World of Warcraft, catching up with TIVO, mindless surfing on the net, rugby) Looking at my writing life this way makes September, where I was home from traveling maybe 5 days the entire month and thus accomplished no actual production done – balanced with May through August where I attended not one, but two writing conferences, wrote and revised a dozen or so new poems, and sent out a slew of work – means September was a in the valley of writing month while the summer I was scaling the hills. Those acceptances that came periodically? Those are the standing at the crest of the hill and marveling at the scenery surrounding, the victory after the toil.

So, keep your writing life in perspective. Define the metric that you are measuring your life and work with and keep it all in context.

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How to Write a short Story

Came across this video narrated by my high school favorite author. A master storyteller, here is Kurt Vonnegut with how to write a short story.

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Reflection on a Week Immersed with Writers #NVWC13

A week ago I was driving home from St. Helena and the community of writers that is the Napa Valley Writers Conference. I was sorry to leave and eager to return home to my family. The drive went quickly with another poet I was dropping at the Oakland Airport. We talked poetry, about our different workshops and then swapped war stories. When we said goodbye at the airport curb he told me he was glad another veteran had been there because he hadn’t been sure how he’d be received. I understood, I hadn’t been sure how I’d be received either, lesbian, feminist, conservatively liberal, retired military war veteran that I am.

IMG_5079Attending this conference was raising the stakes for my identity as a writer and poet. While I have the validation of a Master of Fine Arts degree (in nonfiction), I have not done much work in poetry for oh, several decades. Since February I’ve been on a quest to grow as a poet. Two incidents inspired this choice. Participating with the poetry track of workshops at the San Francisco Writers Conference where I learned from Andy Jones and Brad Henderson of the University of California, Davis, University Writing Program, and Joan Gelfand from the SF Bay Area; poets who are always at the conference and who produced an amazing collection of poetry workshops and events. This year, there was someone new to the conference, Camille T. Dungy. I had an amazing conversation with Camille after one session which led to enjoying lunch together and more conversation. IIMG_5096 was inspired to dive deeper into the craft. (In specific, I challenged her on the seemingly ‘inaccessibility’ of contemporary poetry for anyone outside of academia.) Soon after, I was at AWP and catching up with Eloise Healy, I mentioned I was thinking of another MFA, in poetry. Eloise recommended before investing in (going into debt with) another MFA, try some poetry workshops at conferences. I took her advice, which led me to Napa. Where surprise, the scheduled workshop leader for the group I was assigned was unable to attend. Camille T. Dungy was the replacement. Now that’s karma.

Camille gave her students nuggets of craft that I hungrily took and laid in as part of my foundation when crafting or revising work. One of the first was this quote from Elizabeth Bishop, “A metaphor needs to touch in at least three places and two must be in the real world.” This had immediate and profound impact as I created new work and revised previous work. Suddenly, I discovered where detail was vital and in IMG_5097doing so, my words became expansive and immersive where before they had merely been reporting. In the very first craft talk which happened to be delivered by Camille, I gained one of the most important and influential nuggets of the week – Create a pattern, reward the pattern, disrupt the pattern, return to the pattern or as Camille voiced this – Expectation – Reward, Expectation – Reward, Expectation – Expectation – Surprise! Expectation – Reward. This has become the keystone that most affected my development last week and now as I continue to write poetry. This formula can be applied to form, meter, sound, imagery – so many layers.

A true gift of the week was hearing poets and fiction writers read from their work. The poets read first every evening, the fiction writers second. This schedule supportive for the poets, some whoIMG_5026
skipped the second reading to scamper back to their rooms and complete the new poem creation that was done daily. (Those slacker fiction writers who concentrated on revision while we poets created a new poem each day;) The poetry readings were vast with depth and emotion and the magic of words come alive. The two that have had the most lasting affect were Linda Gregerson and Camille Dungy. Both delivered their poems with authentic presence, drama, and life. Camille’s poem of the watch over her grandmother as she died and the passing of her namesake over the bed brings tears to my eyes even now as I remember the imagery brought to bear with Camille’s voice in my memory. Linda’s recounting of a young girl’s self harm was dazzling in its courage bringing to bay what is so often hidden by those that cut and denied by those that know of the cutting. The readings were more than just listening to masters display their craft – each reading was itself a master class in bringing words on the page to life in that moment the writer engages audience in physical time and place. We

IMG_5072write in isolation, yet we read and share the product of our inspiration in community.

One of the unexpected chunks of learning I’ve returned home with include alternate workshop methods. Unexpected. I didn’t anticipate learning about how to conduct workshop. I thought I’d adapt to whatever workshop method was used likely based in that prevalent method where the writer is a silent fly on the way (admittedly, a method I despise as disrespectful and often abusive). In Camille’s group, we experienced three distinct workshop techniques, each one respectful of the writing and the writer, each one providing feedback for reinforcement as well as revision. A strong thread throughout the week was internalizing what our peers provided to enhance our own self revision process. Taking the surface value – what a peer says to help improve a piece of writing, then internalizing for a second level of effect to self apply that bit of analysis (not the result but the means) which deepens self capability to look at and determine why and where some aspect of the work needs revision or change. I didn’t expect this drilling into and workshop leader deconstruction of what different aspects of the process of “workshop” provides so that I could internalize the practice. This was certainly not part and parcel of my two years of MFA workshop. Here, I was learning how to write better poems. I was learning how to critique with additional tools. And, I was learning how to not only be a peer in a workshop but tools for when I too, eventually become a workshop leader.

The setting at the St. Helena campus of Napa Valley College was peaceful and enveloping. The surrounding countryside breathtaking. Tuition includes breakfast and lunch created by the resident culinary academy and each meal a treat. Breakfast was amazing with fresh from the nest hard boiled eggs and oatmeal I wish I could cook like that at home. Lunch was a global culinary voyage and while not always what my palate was accustomed to, always worth the journey. I was grateful for the community housing scholarship, placing me in the home of one of the program supporters in the community. IMG_5017Returning each night to my room overlooking the pass between two hills with the vineyard vines blanketing the slopes was rejuvenating. The conference staff running the behind the scenes created a seamless experience. (Shout out to Nan, Iris, and Patrick, and the others whose names I missed.)

Each day was chock full of opportunity – workshop, poetry and fiction craft talk, a panel discussion (first book, self publishing were two) break for dinner than the nightly reading. Starting at 9 in the morning and ending at almost 9 at night, somewhere in between the poets would produce a new poem for the next morning’s workshop. Midway through the week, I was invited to join a small group of poets gathering to write offsite – this was a huge departure from normality for me. First, it meant giving up my bit of access to the onsite computer lab where I could work and print, which I couldn’t do back at my room (the one disadvantage to community housing – no printing). Second, it would require I be social, more social than workshop participation called for, which as an introvert can be challenging. (Yes, I am so an introvert.) Third, well, I don’t really like working in small groups like that, I’m basically a hermit. I went anyway. And that was my second best decision about the conference I made (the initial being decision to attend in the first place). That little gathering of IMG_5107poets from three different workshops resulted in newly crafted friendships I would not have otherwise formed. On the last evening we stayed long after everyone else left the grounds and had our IMG_5111own little round robin reading (and yes, we all still had work to produce for the final day). We had found our cohort, as one poet exclaimed. And we left the conference with plans to meet up again, serendipity having brought together four poets who all lived close enough to each other to form a new writing group, we now call The Poet’s Cohort.

A highlight of the week was the participant reading on Thursday afternoon. Each reader had two minutes and the timers were brutal calling time. It was a reflection of mutual respect and community cohesion that when the time was called, any reader that was still reading cooperatively stopped. No time enforcement procedures required. There were about 47 poets who read and half that many fiction writers. I truly enjoyed hearing all the different excepts of fiction, a few had me on the edge of my seat – no mean task with only 2 minutes, or about a page worth to read. There was some amazing poetry, some read from published books other from work created in the week. Very few instructors attended, and that was a letdown. Most of the participants were there it seemed, and that was fun.

IMG_5081My week in Napa was a grand investment and indulgence. Indulgence as it meant my full time, works outside the house, wife had to concurrently wrangle our two small children (ages 1 and 4) and we had the financial burden of a week of childcare for the littlest while she was at work. Investment truly as my understanding and application of the craft of poetry is already returning dividends. Since returning home, I’ve submitted to four different markets with six poems and a chapbook out for consideration. I decided to apply for a poetry fellowship next year and the idea of another MFA, this one in poetry, is at the moment off the radar. Eloise was on to something, recommending conference workshops and the opportunity they bring. I’m reading the craft books recommended and written by the workshop leaders, already applying new tools as I craft, create and revise, revise, revise.

I worked hard that conference week. I created four new poems and received useful feedback for revision on a fifth. I was among peers and role models and felt part of the greater community we together formed.  In this week since the conference, I felt adrift those first few days, bereft even from the now lost companionship and daily immersion in a small island of words and wordsmiths. I am inspired though, to continue the hard work and looking forward to a return to that bucolic valley and community of writers.  Two quotes I’ll close with – you decide where they will take you.

“Interesting writing engages the world around us.” Camille T. Dungy.

“The poem kidnaps awareness.” Jane Hirshfield.IMG_5052

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Veterans Writing Project – What a Week!

Poets with GWU Writing Program Director

Poets with GWU Writing Program Director

The time spent immersed with veterans across conflicts and generations was without compare. This was so much more than a writing retreat. Yes, there was lots and lots of creative writing. Yes, there was much discussion of craft. Yes, there were word prompts and revision and work shopping of deeply personal moments in the life of someone who just days before was a complete stranger. The biggest gift though was the common thread of respect and mutual regard as veterans. No one had to prove anything. All of us had already “been there, done that.”

I attended in a genre not my usual focal point, poetry. I’ve been spending a large part of this year concentrating on poetry though nonfiction narrative is where my MFA and much of what I publish remains. In part, this has been to return myself to my writing first love and first roots. I’ve considered returning for another MFA, in Poetry, as I don’t feel I have the “poetics” muscle well developed, and lack the scholarly experience the genre seems to demand for an educated discussion within the poetry community. Or perhaps I’m placing too much weight in the academic side of the poetry community. What my experience immersed in poetry this week with four other poets and the wonderful tutelage from North Carolina Poet Laureate Joseph Bathanti gave me was tremendous validation as a poet. That the narratives I write, in poetry or in prose are a means to give voice and that this is a calling I must continue.

 

On the final night, we all gave readings, please give a listen to my reading of the original poem, When Jenny Comes Marching Home.

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Personal Fundraising

The hard part about a personal fundraising campaign is the asking for help. I watch my four year old, and she so wants to do everything on her own. Don’t we all?

 

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Long ago, when I was in my first REAL job as a college graduate I learned about personal fundraising when after I’d told a colleague I wanted to attend something but couldn’t afford to do so, she encouraged me to allow the people in my life to support me in reaching beyond where I am to where I want to be.

I also learned something there about the difference between scarcity and sufficiency. Believing resources are scarce creates more scarcity. Operating from sufficiency, opens up room for the unexpected and resources to find you.

If you are still reading, here is the most important point I learned from a friend while at that first real job – money is meaningless as anything other than energy. Money is the fuel for what is important to each of us in life. That’s all. Fuel to create lives that are sufficient, not lives constrained by scarcity. Money comes and goes, what we invest the fuel, the energy in is where we make a difference. In our own lives and the lives of those we value, and in the lives of the community around us.

Please invest in me as a writer, a poet and a voice for those who cannot yet speak their stories. What I write more often than not, revolves around answering the question, “What was it like?”

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Coming Soon for Poetry Month – Pulitzer Remix

Official Remixer 2013Coming soon – Pulitzer Remix for Poetry Month 2013. Eight-five poets, each taking one of the 85 fiction Pulitzer winners, posting a poem a day created from text drawn from the Pulitzer winning book. Check back every day in April for a new poem. In particular, you can follow the Found Poetry I’m creating from the 1970 Pulitzer for Fiction, The Collected Works of Jean Stafford.

Found poetry uses existing text, creating literary collages, using only what is already in the source text with little change.  The Poet refashion and reorders, creating something new.

Read more about Found Poetry at The Found Poetry Review and Poets.org. Visit Pulitzer Remix.

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Third Sunday Blog Carnival

Visit Sweepy Jean’s Third Sunday Blog Carnival  and discover authors of fiction, poetry and writing life blog posts.

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Indie Author Stops on the Information Super Highway

Today’s post is about two very useful sites I visit often. Both have useful and interesting topics posted daily that provide insight and information for any emerging writer or indie author.

First is Joel Friedlander and The Book Designer blog where over 700 articles are available that guide and educate authors through the publishing process. Discussions covering diverse aspect of publishing a book are covered from fonts and using aspects of specific word processing programs to self publishing do it yourself issues. Blogging and book design, E-books and E-readers, Marketing and Reviews, Social Media and Webinars, Blog carnivals and guest posts – Joel Friedlander has created a clearinghouse of information for authors. The tag line for The Book Designer is “Practical advice to help build better books,” and that is exactly what the site visitor finds. Looking for more detailed, specific ways to improve your own author toolbox? Check out Tools and Resources, want to invest in some training, click on Training Courses for classes that Joel offers and Books and Guides for links to order his books. Joel Friedlander is a recognized authority in self publishing and book design. Just reading the free resources on this blog provides an informative apprenticeship in self publishing with exposure to many other perspectives via the blog carnival and guest posts that are also part of the site. This is a stop on the information super highway that belongs on every blog roll. Visit often. Follow Joel Friedlander on Twitter @Carnival_Indies and @JFBookman

Next up is Molly Greene who blogs her journey as an indie author with frequent guest posts that will help someone looking at the independent author route make more informed decisions and maybe prevent a few regretful ones made from lack of information. Molly blogs her personal experience, with occasional bits from her real life, resulting in an informal, chat around the kitchen table atmosphere. She talks about the challenges and opportunities for indie authors and brings in occasional experts with interesting perspectives. I’ve returned to Molly’s site numerous times for a refresher on Createspace verses Lightning Source for self-publishing – a vital bit of self-education for the indie author. Looking for helpful, effective tools for promotion and use of social media, Molly Greene has some insights to share. When scrolling down my twitter feed, Molly is one of the authors I most often retweet, her information is always timely to what I as an emerging indie author is interested in reading and need for improving my promotion and self marketing. Another stop on the information super highway worth visiting. Follow Molly Greene on Twitter @MollyGreene.

There are many resources on the web in the community of writers and independent authors. Actually, there are numerous circles (or tribes) of writers and there are many more helpful sites out there. These are two I visit on a recurring basis which makes them definitely worth sharing.

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First Look at The Republic

Here is the first chapter of a work in process and my first dive into the novel genre. (Language warning.)

THE REPUBLIC

Carefully dating the page, November 22, then it was added to a sheaf of papers sealed into a priority mail envelope on the table. Redundant hardcopy backing up carefully written emails and tweets scheduled to go out across the spectrum of the internet. Then, picking up the weapon, the soldier carefully steadied the Dragunov on the firing point. Reaching, a fist beat into then massaged the sand bag brought for better support. There would be two shots. Both moving targets, though at a slow, steady pace no faster than what a fit man or woman could jog. Shot two taken before knowing the outcome of shot one, waiting to determine the accuracy of the first would only negate the opportunity for the second. The second shot would be taken without sighting. Faster to slide the barrel swiftly against the aiming point, firing as soon as contact was made and trust that the calculations were correct and the sighting made earlier accurate. Then, they would come. Fast and furious, adrenaline pumping with weapons more than ready, they would find her. Might not get past that first moment. The story though, the story of the intent behind the act would. The words a churning bit of electron spamming across the web were set to erupt at exactly the time the target was due centered in sniper rifle sights. This time, truth would be known.

/…/

The motorcade made its turn down Elm Street in Dallas towards DealeyPlaza. Unhappy Secret Service Agents tightened their positions at the corners of each vehicle, listening intently to the chatter coming through their earpieces as each station checked in, verifying all quiet and clear at each position. No suspicious activities, no unidentified people in unsecured locations. Snipers and spotters on surrounding roofs scanning the area level, above and below the route looking for changes, discrepancies, awkward glances, out of place movements, flashes of light where there should be only darkness.

They were in Texas, and this was the President’s town. He sat like a high school debutante atop the football jock’s convertible waving at his people. Seated in the car behind was the Chief, trying hard to not look as disgusted with this exercise of the emperor mingling with the common folk as he felt. There really was no need for this malarkey anymore. Not like the man had to campaign for votes. There wouldn’t be an election now for a long, long time. There were always men willing to do the unspeakable, and in his job, always money to pay for it. The façade of patriotism was such a powerful tool. A Presidential term indefinitely extended.

The soldier took three quick, deep breaths, felt her fingers tingle and then a fourth breath held a moment before released long and slow. Taking the hand lettered sign with red block letters, “IN HERE,”  strode to the door, opened it and attached the sign to the front of the door. With a chuckle then walked back to the window, currently covered with plywood, and checked the time. A police band radio earpiece was tuned to the not so secure frequency and indicated the motorcade was 5 minutes out. Slowly, with the rifle in hand, took up a shooting position. Subtle sensatons – body settled into the rifle’s weight, the wood of the table, feet flat on the floor. Breathing, respiration, heart beating; it all slowed while thoughts in the mind slowly separated from conscious being. A small part of the brain listened to the police band announcing the time, 12:29:30 and the location of the President’s vehicle. With a whisper of movement, the cutout in the wood covering the window to remove the 6 by 12 inch piece covering the hole created to shoot through. Just enough to allow the first shot then shift fire for the second shot, the far edge of the opening serving as the aiming stake second shot was dependent upon. A vulnerable next 30 seconds. There were were spotters on the surrounding roofs, looking for what was not the same as the last time a check on the area of this building, this floor, this window had been made. Finally a push the button on the radio; no longer needed its chatter. Needing only to breathe, to lose self within the breath. And then to stop, no sound, no rushing of heart in the ear, no heartbeat at all. That was the point the target would be in the cross-hairs and bang, take the shot. Slowly, a finger exerted pressure on the trigger. Quiet mind clear, blank, sufficient to itself with only a target slowly moving towards the center of the cross hairs, entering the circle as one finger brought more pressure to bear. The target continued forward. The pressure increased with an agonizing squeeze. Slowly with the agony of patience a screaming child demanded. The click of the trigger was felt an infinitesimal span of time before the explosion of the shot rang out. The kick of the rifle absorbed, tight into the shoulder as a shift and the rifle moved left to the sidewall of the cutout, moving it surely to the edge, secure in the corner and knowing, as long as it was deep, close into the corner of the cutout, the second shot would be true.

“ALPHA SIX, ALPHA SIX, CHARLIE TWO, REFLECTION SOUTHEAST CORNER, FLOOR SIX FROM THE DEPOSITORY, The spotter on the roof radioed the Command Post.

”YOU’RE SEEING GHOSTS UP THERE, PAY ATTENTION,” The Duty Commander laughed into the radio.

“ALPHA SIX, ALPHA SIX, FUCK THAT SIR! THERE’S A FUCKING REFLECTION THAT WASN’T REFLECTING TWO MINUTES AGO!”

“ALRIGHT, ALREADY! BREAK, BREAK! DELTA THREE, DELTA THREE, CHECK THE DEPOSITORY, FLOOR 6, SOUTHEAST CORNER. YOU’RE THE GHOSTBUSTERS BOYS AND GIRLS.”

The tactical team took the elevator to the 6th floor. Charlie two just earned themselves a new nickname, seeing things from the very window used more than four decades ago. Probably a local cop looking out his own binocs, yet another failed coordination with the Secret Service. The team exited the elevator and started walking towards the last door. The point man suddenly stopped, slamming his hand into the chest of the guy next to him. Just as he raised his hand to point out the sign on the door with three inch red letters, the shot echoed down the hallway.

The door busted down taking half the frame with it as the second shot rang out.

The shooter spread arms out as the first man in ordered, “DOWN ON THE FLOOR.” The rifle still on sand bag was knocked off the table. An agent pushed kicked it aside clattering across the floor. The shooter slowly followed, spreading legs and arms outward, palms up.

“Look, on the chair,” whispered the point man.

The team leader looked and only then noticed. Next to the Shooter was the jacket of the Army Service Uniform. There was an airborne combat unit insignia on the right, a combat action badge on the chest above rolls of ribbons.

His team moved through the room, two officers secured the prisoner on the floor one with a knee to the small of the suspect’s back.

“Clear!” the rest of the team echoed each other as the room was secured.

The shooter was searched and secured with hands behind the back, then two members of the team jerked the shooter up. The trail man behind the team leader gave a low whistle. There was a rack of ribbons on the shooter’s jacket that stood out as a buxom blonde to a 16 year boy. That soldier had been places, done things and been rewarded for it, was that a ‘V’ device on one, no, two ribbons the team leader wondered?

“This was taped to the table,” the second man in handed the team leader a priority mail envelope. He looked at the addressee on the envelope, “To the American People” it said.

Looking at the shooter, standing there calmly, hands clasped behind, fuck, standing at ease like that no indication in hand cuffs; you’d think he was on the parade ground.

“Why’d you do it,” the team leader demanded, pulling the camouflaged cloth away from the Shooter’s head and face.

“WHAT THE FUCK!” he exclaimed.

The solider looked the Tactical Team Leader square in the eye. The silence pulled the attention of the rest of the team.  “It’s a girl,” whispered the Agent at the door.

“I’m a Patriot,” she calmly said.

End.

copyright 2012

 

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Free No Red Pen

The giants at Amazon want me to make them the exclusive distributors of my work if I want to conduct marketing specials by making the work free. That would limit availability to just Amazon.com. I’m just not all that interested in driving sales to a sole provider at the expense of other providers or at the expense of widening availability for access to my work. So, instead of signing up for KDP Select which would have enabled me to make my book, No Red Pen: Writers, Writing Groups & Critique free for a few days of the month and open the book up for lending within the Amazon universe with a bit of profit out of that; I made my book free everywhere else. So, for the next, I dunno, month or so, No Red Pen: Writers, Writing Groups, & Critique is free at smashwords, and once smashwords does its monthly update, free in all the other venues serviced by smashwords for distribution. So, you’ll still have to pay to download the ebook version onto your Kindle, but for any other device, it will be free.

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